I just finished the most monstrous essay of my life, and I need help.
The essay was only 1000 words, sure, but being me I left it all to the last minute. Not kidding, I got it in one minute before the deadline. I threw up a little bit in my mouth, that’s how stressed I was. Now I have to try and start my assignments for next week… or I could procrastinate by writing another blog post about why I’m the world’s largest procrastinator.
So how is it that me, being the world’s largest procrastinator, can churn out personal blog posts and creative stories of 1000 words plus in less than half an hour, but struggle so much trying to put strings of words together in a piece of academic writing? It’s not that the content doesn’t interest me – I wouldn’t be here studying it if I didn’t. It’s not that I don’t like writing about it, and I’m about 102% sure the writing itself isn’t the issue. It’s not just essays either, I’m about a mile behind on my blog posts for DIGC202. I’m a perfectionist, so it’s not as though I couldn’t care less about the quality; in fact, when I work last minute I tend to overwrite and most of my stress comes from cutting out enough words to fall back inside the word limit.
So what is it that’s hardwired into me that causes me to put these things off until the deadline is staring me in the face, and I have to die a little in order to write them? And how can I uninstall it? Consider this an official SOS – I need help.